"Package"

Today was an early 4:ooam travel time to Atl to be at a Breast MRI appointment which was at 6:30 am. I am telling you this Breast Cancer Specialist of Atlanta were I go means serious businesses when it comes to women's breast they start before even the rooster crows. But anyway I thought I was going to get a simple "push you in the tunnel, sleep for awhile, no fear, MRI" OHHHH I WAS WRONG MY DEAR FRIENDS!!!! As many of you know of my DEATHLY fear of needles came to be with me this early morning. The doctors tricked me into thinking this was no big deal. Well lets see this how it went: I get called back into the MRI "prep" room where I swore I heard the theme song to JAWS all in its glory the IV pole. I asked very quickly of "excuse do you mean to tell me this involves an IV or needles" the nurse who did not want to be there that early either ever so quickly replied "yes dear anything that has to do with cancer involves an IV". I really wanted to tell her well excuse me I am only 21 and it has not been my everyday study of how women are treated with BREAST CANCER!!!! I then said well you will need to give me a few minutes while I take my Valium and place my numbing cream on my hand. Oh she was not having this. She told me to take my pill and "empty my bladder" but we need to start this processes because she just could not get behind. So I told her well you come at me with a needle and I am going to through the biggest fit like 2 year who lost there lollipop.

In case you were wondering I threw the fit but she got the IV in there. (I am very bruised on my arm). Another problem from the MRI was I am deaf in my left ear. They had to put ear plugs in my ears because of how loud the machine gets with earphones barely playing a radio station with the sometime the nurse comes on to tell if I am OK. The only problem I CAN"T HEAR IT! at this point we were not liking each other. I finally yelled uh, deaf women have cancer too you know! Then I was pushed into the machine like a dead person going into the filing cabinet.

45 minutes into they put in the contrast which helps the doctors see were all the cancer is in my breast. That stuff knocks you out and no one told me. After it was over they pulled me off the table and past out for 8 hours until it wore off. It was so bad my parents drove me to Lenox, parked the car, and asked me if i wanting to go shopping, as my mom puts it I said "not to today". That is why I was so mad.

After passing out in the car I had one more appointment for the day at Winship Cancer Center at Emory University. My doctors gave me a plan of chemo. I will have 8 treatments total over a 16 weeks period. I will have 4 treatments of the "AC" drug and then 4 treatments of the "red devil drug" followed by a lumpectomy in June or July followed by 6 weeks of radiation, and take taxficon a pill for 5 years. whew! hopefully by then I will be done with everything.

Tomorrow I will see 2 doctors. Dr. Jones in Macon to see what days I will have chemo. And then off to Atlanta because Brian and I have to Reproductive Oncologist about our future babies because its the law. Its crazy to think that we have to plan something like this before we are even married. I wish God had a Bible for that one!

I will keep everyone posted!

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P.S. I get my port Wednesday March 19, 2008 at 8:00 am at Northside Women's Hospital in Atl.